I think back to school and taking tests. I never worried about taking them. I didn't care. They were there to show what I knew, not what I could worry about before-hand. Life is like that. Worrying about things right before hand doesn't help things. Either you prepare before hand if you really care about something, or you don't worry about it. I've found that not worrying about things helps a lot.
It's hardest when I want something else to happen. I want so-and-so to be friends with me, or I want to help someone else out. I want to do this and I want to do that, but I don't listen to what God wants me to do. It's not until you realize that God is talking to you, that you can listen. I'm shutting up now. Hopefully I'll be able to tune my ears in soon.
1/12/97